ICU
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Afterlife
03 : 22
2
Alone with Myself
02 : 51
3
Good Enough for God
03 : 16
4
My Own Miracle
02 : 39
5
Reason to Live
03 : 09
6
Therapy
00 : 00
7
Fake Friends
00 : 00
8
Broken Like Me
02 : 52
9
Comparison
03 : 28
10
You Are Enough
00 : 00
11
Wired for Worthless
02 : 56
12
Strong for Somebody Else
03 : 09
13
Made by Misery
00 : 00
14
Without You
00 : 00
15
Black-Hole Brain
00 : 00
16
Victim or Survivor
00 : 00
17
Talk Me Down
03 : 10
18
ICU
00 : 00
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Track Lyrics
Afterlife Lyrics
[Intro]
Now I lay me down to sleep
Six feet down beneath concrete
If I should die before I wake
Did I make peace or a mistake?
[Verse 1]
Before the ink dries on the suicide note
Before you say goodbye to the ones you love most
Before you burn the book of your story untold
Hold on, hold on
Before you cut ties with the demons you know
Before you tie a knot at the end of your rope
Before you decide that you're running out of hope
Hold on
[Chorus]
You don't have to die
To reach the other side
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife, afterlife
The monsters in your mind
Are mountains you can climb
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife, afterlife
[Verse 2]
Before you look for god in a bottle of pills
Before you turn the lights off so you don't have to feel
Before it's not a threat, before you make it real
Hold on, hold on
Before you go to sleep praying to a razor blade
Before you stare a gun down to see a better place
Before it's in stone, before it's too late
Hold on
[Chorus]
You don't have to die
To reach the other side
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife, afterlife
The monsters in your mind
Are mountains you can climb
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife, afterlife
[Bridge 1]
Nobody knows
If we'll ever rest in peace
But we control
Where the road through hell can lead
You've got eternity to sleep
[Bridge 2]
If I should die
Before I wake
Did I make peace
Or a mistake?
[Chorus]
You don't have to die
To reach the other side
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife
The monsters in your mind
Are mountains you can climb
You don't have to die, have to die
To find your afterlife, afterlife
[Post-Chorus]
Afterlife
Reason to Live Lyrics
[Verse 1]
How many nights have you waited for someone to care
Thinking dying is what you deserve
Like a sad song that no one seems to understand
'Cause some pain is just too much for words
No, I don't know your name
No, I can't see your face
But I've been to that place in the dark
So in case you just needed to hear someone say
I'm so proud of you for getting this far
[Chorus]
So if you're feeling like dying
No tears left for crying
Alone at the edge of a cliff
If you're so sick of fighting
The monsters you're hiding
And wondering if you would be missed
You're not the only one that's feeling likе this
If you're hearing this song it's a gift
A reason to livе
[Post-Chorus]
(A reason to live)
[Verse 2]
How many times have you reached out for anyone's hand
From the depths of your personal hell?
And then counted the ways you could end all your pain
'Cause you're so tired of saving yourself
I'm a stranger at best but please don't second guess
All the hope that you hear in my voice
This is not some cliché, promise you if you stay
Someday you'll see that you were well worth that choice
[Chorus]
So if you're feeling like dying
No tears left for crying
Alone at the edge of a cliff
If you're so sick of fighting
The monsters you're hiding
And wondering if you would be missed
You're not the only one that's feeling like this
If you're hearing this song it's a gift
[Outro]
What a beautiful truth that a human can choose
To become more than just what they feel
'Cause the hell in your head will be nothing compared
To the person that it couldn't kill
You Are Enough Lyrics
[Verse 1]
You see that glass half empty
Each time you look in the mirror
It's like the more you're trying
Your flaws start showing up clearer
[Pre-Chorus]
You bleed emotion so devoted to what people say
So sick of hoping so you focus on all your mistakes
Stop changing, there's nothing to fix when life's a war for you
That's when your pulse becomes the proof
[Chorus]
When you're a little messed up
When you're a little unwell
And nobody understands
That you are going through hell
Right here like this right now
You are enough
When you'vе been broken and bruised
Becausе the past has been tough
Being human is
What makes you something worthy of love
Right here this sick right now
You are enough
So don't give up
[Verse 2]
With every passing stranger
You find something that you're missing
So kind, except to yourself
You're anything but forgiving
[Pre-Chorus]
You bleed emotion so devoted to what people say
Give second chances left and right and only take the blame
Don't change a single thing 'cause there is nothing wrong with you
What you feel now, don't make it truth
[Chorus]
When you're a little messed up
When you're a little unwell
And nobody understands
That you are going through hell
Right here like this right now
You are enough
When you've been broken and bruised
Because the past has been tough
Being human is
What makes you something worthy of love
Right here this sick right now
You are enough
[Bridge]
Stop chasing something that you're never gonna find
Already perfect but your past has left you blind
So when the voices in your head ain't being kind
Here is something to remind you
[Chorus]
When you're a little messed up
When you're a little unwell
And nobody understands
That you are going through hell
Right here like this right now
You are enough
When you've been broken and bruised
Because the past has been tough
Being human is
What makes you something worthy of love
Right here this sick right now
You are enough
So don't give up
Wired for Worthless Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Pull you in, push you away
It's how I say: “I'm a little unstable”
Emotionless like a machine
Can't feel a thing with short circuits in my cables
[Pre-Chorus]
A brain built by every memory
Of times I was not enough to make
The ones I need most just wanna stay
What's wrong with me?
[Chorus]
Love is a lie
Hope is a hole
Trust is the trap that took my soul
Family is fake
Hatred is home
Getting abandoned is all I've known
I have tried, I have tried to be perfect
But I believe, I believe I deserve it
I havе tried, I have tried to unlеarn it
But I am wired, I am wired for worthless
Wired for worthless
[Verse 2]
Every act of kindness, every word of praise
Makes the system malfunction
Only hear the negative 'cause each mistake
Is what feeds the combustion
[Pre-Chorus]
A brain built by every memory
Of times I was vulnerable in vain
That just proved I'm never worth pain
What's wrong with me?
[Chorus]
Love is a lie
Hope is a hole
Trust is the trap that took my soul
Family is fake
Hatred is home
Getting abandoned is all I've known
I have tried, I have tried to be perfect
But I believe, I believe I deserve it
I have tried, I have tried to unlearn it
But I am wired, I am wired for worthless
[Bridge]
Love is a lie
Hope is a hole
Hatred is home
It's a part of me that I can't let go
[Chorus]
I have tried, I have tried to be perfect
But I believe, I believe I deserve it
I have tried, I have tried to unlearn it
But I am wired, I'm wired for worthless
Wired for worthless
Strong for Somebody Else Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I've played out the scene so much in my head
I have to wake up but I'd rather be dead
Haunted by thoughts of the ones I love most
I picture them living alone with my ghost
[Pre-Chorus]
Kill the pain and
Kill the family
Choke the dark down
Just be happy
Talk myself off
Of this ledge I know all too well
[Chorus]
My personal hell
I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world
I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill
I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel
I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
[Verse 2]
This voice in my head, it wants me to choose
Die selfish or live with my head in a noose
Does it ever get better, is this worth the fight?
Everyone has a breaking point, guess we'll find mine
[Pre-Chorus]
Kill the body
Not the memory
Wouldn't blame 'em
They'd resent me
Kind of scares me
What it takes to just save myself
[Chorus]
My personal hell
I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world
I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill
I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel
I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
[Post-Chorus]
Somebody else
Somebody else
[Chorus]
My personal hell
I'll bury it, bury it
Weight of the world
I'll carry it, carry it
Pile it all on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
Put my pain in a pill
I'll swallow it, swallow it
Too numb to feel
I'm hollow, I'm hollow
I have to hold on
I've gotta be strong
For somebody, for somebody
[Post-Chorus]
Somebody else
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
For somebody, for somebody
Somebody else
Talk Me Down Lyrics
[Verse 1]
It's 3am again
My mind is caving in
But no one's listening
But no one's listening
Bottles of medicine
My closest thing to friends
'Cause no one's listening
'Cause no one's listening
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm on the edge of a crisis
But why should I make a scene?
Is there any reason to fight this
If nobody's losing sleep?
[Chorus]
My life's a ledge right now
Nobody knows about
There's no one to talk me down
There's no one to talk me down
So sick of reaching out
Silence is getting loud
With no one to talk me down
With no one to talk me down
[Post-Chorus]
No one, no one to talk me
No one, no one to talk me
No one, nobody to stop me
No one, no one to talk me down
[Verse 2]
These thoughts drag me away
Down to the darkest place
But no one's listening
But no one's listening
People I have to chase
Prove I'm not worth the pain
'Cause no one's listening
Why won't they listen?
[Chorus]
My life's a ledge right now
Nobody knows about
There's no one to talk me down
There's no one to talk me down
So sick of reaching out
Silence is getting loud
With no one to talk me down
With no one to talk me down
[Bridge]
I've tried to call in the crisis
Nobody's answering
Is there any reason to fight this
If nobody's missing me?
[Chorus]
My life's a ledge right now
Nobody knows about
There's no one to talk me down
There's no one to talk me down
My life's a ledge right now
Nobody knows about
There's no one to talk me down
There's no one to talk me down
So sick of reaching out
Silence is getting loud
With no one to talk me down
With no one to talk me down
[Post-Chorus]
No one, no one to talk me
No one, no one to talk me
No one, nobody to stop me
No one, no one to talk me down
ICU Lyrics
[Verse 1]
You've been hurting in a million ways
No one else can see
'Cause no one took 'em serious
Till the injuries
[Pre-Chorus]
So you took it out of God's hands and into yours
And threw up the prescription on the bathroom floor
You didn't wanna hurt no more
[Chorus]
I see you
Crying in a gown that's blue
Screaming through a breathing tube
"How'd I get to this place?"
I see you
Wondering how you came unglued
Feeling like your whole life's screwed
"Who could love me this way?"
You couldn't hear a single word they said in that padded room
When every day all of your darkest thoughts kept on coming true
Lying in the ICU
[Verse 2]
You've been carving maps into your skin
To make the sickness show
A kind of suffering that's never fit
A diagnostic code
[Pre-Chorus]
So you pictured all the faces when they'd hear the news
Thought your body in a bag would be enough to prove
That this was real and not some sad excuse
[Chorus]
I see you
Crying in a gown that's blue
Screaming through a breathing tube
"How'd I get to this place?"
I see you
Wondering how you came unglued
Feeling like your whole life's screwed
"Who could love me this way?"
You couldn't hear a single word they said in that padded room ("Hey kid, are you okay?")
When every day all of your darkest thoughts kept on coming true
[Bridge]
I see you trying not to cry
Just wishing you had not survived
But don't give up, give it a little time
Some day you'll see that you were worth this fight
I see you wide awake all night
A million prayers, not even one reply
But don't give up 'cause there's another side
And you still have a lot of songs to write
[Chorus]
I see you
Crying in a gown that's blue
Screaming through a breathing tube
"How'd I get to this place?"
I see you
Wondering how you came unglued
Feeling like your whole life's screwed
"Who could love me this way?"
You couldn't hear a single word they said in that padded room
When every day all of your darkest thoughts kept on coming true
Lying in the ICU